semi-optimist.

Saturday, January 03, 2004

I'm so sorry for breaking the promises
I'm so sorry for saying that we won't last
I'm so sorry for remembering the past
I'm sorry, yes so sorry
"Sorry" by Inquisitive

I'm just addicted to this song... Reminds me of my ex... What she had done to me and all... But anyways... put that aside ayte. Now i'm feeling very down... You don't need to know la k. But my "bro" knows it... Thanx for understanding ayte bro... Went to esplanade to break... Break and break when Srul came with his boo and his boo's sister. Chilled with them... Played a fool around... RFC was there... Riuh mamapong nyer...

Actually... i'm not in the mood today... Just feel so "sick" today... Update some other tyme... :(

---wrecked @ 1/03/2004 11:24:00 PM---

Friday, January 02, 2004

Today was fine... Just a lil boring and slacking... The Sec ones were very decent looking... Some of them are kinda the bitchy type but it's their own thang. No sibuk-menyibuk uh k. Then when the principal talking many people were sleeping. Including me of course. If not i won't i type that ok. Hahaha... Whatever... Felt sleepy in class... Lucky no study today uh... Form teacher is... my last year's maths teacher.. Ms Lee.. That blur sotong... But its ok. Carry on ayte. :P

Going to CDS dome today... session with them... Wondering bout being in that crew... Then besok ader CCA Open House... Bo teng betol... After that going to Esplanade... This bgirl wanna meet me... and the reason being that she never see me for a long tyme and she miss me alot. Ok lah... Besok gi. Anyways.. Gotta keep going... Peace... Ok~ Go!!!~

---wrecked @ 1/02/2004 03:41:00 PM---

Thursday, January 01, 2004

Came back from East Coast at 2 pm today... And realised my computer is starting its own pranks again... Fuggit... But anyways... Went to "study" as my friends said so... But ended up playing street soccer. So dumb... Got no mood to play but nehmind bout that...

Yesterday East Coast very pack... Susah nak park lorry... After HipHop Club registration abang hatta ask me and the other bboys and bgirls to perform... Can't run away... Abang Hatta dah beg... Just go uh. Fun breaking on stage. Many response. Thanx to them... After the all procedure of the show i went to East Coast.. Reached there at 11.30pm with my uncle fetching me from Marine Parade.. Then when going to New Year the people around countdowned... ~5...4...3...2...1...~ and boom.... Bunga api all came out. Hahaha! Great huh? Then me spend my tyme on the sand alone till 2 am... Then go sleep... Woke up at 6am... Can't sleep well... Gedebak gedebuk... Balik kol 2... Reach home at 2.30pm... Penat dokk...

Bought Da Forze EP... And i like Inquisitive's Sorry... Wabul's voice was outstanding and awesome like always... Admire his voice... Duffy was great.. Yeah... Listened to it all over again... So sweet a song... And also Da Forze's collabo with M16... titled Ex-Lover... Very very sweet to... Still listening to it now... Addictive uh... Anyways... Tomorrow skool. Damn!! Anyways... going off now. Goodnight~

---wrecked @ 1/01/2004 09:40:00 PM---

Tuesday, December 30, 2003

Tired!!.. Yes i am... Bought 112's Hot and Wet album... Yeah... It's nyce... Recommended ish... Love it. Went to HMV today... Far East too...went to Hypno and guess wat...? I saw DA FORZE EP. Dammit!! Gonna buy it.. 12 bucks onli.Hahaha! Besok gak beli. Jeng3! Feeling pretty tired... yes i am... Thinking of having a digicam for my bdae... PLEase!!! i want it!!! Hehe... And a Technics hooded sweater too... Hehehe... Hope i could get 'em...

Im listening to 112 now... Feel so soothing... Tomorrow go Far East again... then go membership signup for Hiphop Club. weee~!! Going with abang hollowback kush... Zakie. Lama siot tak jumpa ko.. Makin pro aku agak... Im seriously headblanked... Anything just picit ah ayte... Peace~...

---wrecked @ 12/30/2003 10:12:00 PM---

Woke up at 8... Ngantok!!! Slept at 3... like always... Hmph* Later going out wit Kak Nadia... Maybe with Farz along... Hope Farz can make it... Hati lega sikit when she started talking to me... Alhamdulillah... Later wanna buy cd...rap or rnb... Now kepala beserabut siol... Stress pikir pasal wat cd to buy... Nanti pikir suda ayte... Ok.. I haven't breakfast yet... But no mood to have breakie liao... Now i'm listening to Cranberries' Animal Instinct... my all tyme favourite... So touching. Ahakz!~

Actually... i got no idea wat to type now... hahaha..!! Moz prolly i update lagik tonight... Slamatz braderz and sistaz!~....

---wrecked @ 12/30/2003 08:45:00 AM---

Monday, December 29, 2003

"Dangerously In Love"

I love you... I love you,I love you

Baby I love you
You are my life
My happiest moments weren't complete
If you weren't by my side
You're my relation
In connection to the sun
With you next to me
There's no darkness I can't overcome
You are my raindrop
I am the sea
With you and God, who's my sunlight
I bloom and grow so beautifully
Baby, I'm so proud
So proud to be your girl
You make the confusion
Go all away
From this cold and messed up world

I am in love with you
You set me free
I can't do this thing
Called life without you here with me
Cause I'm Dangerously In Love with you
I'll never leave
Just keep lovin' me
The way I love you loving me

And I know you love me
Love me for who I am
Cause years before I became who I am
Baby you were my man
I know it ain't easy
Easy loving me
I appreciate the love and dedication
From you to me
Later on in my destiny
I see myself having your child
I see myself being your wife
And I see my whole future in your eyes
Thought of all my love for you
sometimes make me wanna cry
Realize all my blessings
I'm grateful
To have you by my side

Every time I see your face
My heart smiles
Every time it feels so good
It hurts sometimes
Created in this world
To love and to hold
To feel
To breathe
To love you

Dangerously in love
Can't do this thing
I love you , I love you, I love you
I'll never leave
Just keep on loving me
I'm in love with you
I can not do
I cannot do anything without you in my life
Holding me, kissing me, loving me
Dangerously
I love you
Dangerously in love

---wrecked @ 12/29/2003 02:31:00 PM---

Like yesterday, i'm just worried. Mengapa...? I dun even know why myself... Haikel messaged me yesterday night around 10+ asking what happened to me yesterday... Ok.. One thing i almost fainted in a place where nobody is around... So quiet and i was alone. Kalau faint,who wanna help? But lucky i didnt... Haikel,if u are reading this dun get mad ayte. I understand that they're tired. Can't blame them. As for today... I'm too lazy... Woke up at 8... But i still wanna sleep... Maybe going to ma friend's crib today....do homework... Btw...i slept at 3 am yesterday... Tu pon nasib2... At pit i could onli sleep for half an hour... Can't get maself back to sleep... So... Haiz... Not enough sleep... My migraine datang balik... :(...

Thought of going to town today... Wanna buy 112 or Jagged Edge or any rnb cd... But im too lazy myself... Wednesday hafta go Boon Lay CC there to sign up for Hip Hop Club... As wat Abang Hatta had mentioned at NDP 2003. Ader ngaji lagik and my uncle is organising a bbq pit at East Coast. Again!!! Erm... Dunno lah... Most prolly going. Listening to "Careless Whisperer" on the radio... Arghh!... Entahlah... Yesterday night listened to Boyz2Men just to get myself to sleep...~

Feels like one of those nights...
Lady, i'm in need of love in a hurry...
50 candles burn bright
And all is right,as our bodies unite
Take our time,do it right
~ 50 Candles - Boyz2Men...
Thanks to this song and thinking of someone yesterday night that allowed me to sleep...

To Farz... i'm sorry if i've caused you any trouble... just tell me if you need help in anything... In breaking or anything just tell me... I'll try my best to help and improve you... But the thing is if i have caused any pain or made you mad... I'm sorry... Bout watching the movie... When you wanna watch? Inform me bout any updates...

Get back in later... my head's getting heavier... Dammit...

---wrecked @ 12/29/2003 10:37:00 AM---

Sunday, December 28, 2003

Yup.. Me again... Back again... Today tak jadi ngok movie... big bro aidil can't come. Postponed it to another day i think... School's reopening... SUCKS!!! O' levels next year... blubber.... Tak banyak cakap skarang... Dunno why... Get back in tomorrow... *worried*

---wrecked @ 12/28/2003 09:06:00 PM---

Sweet lady,
I wished and wanted to spend some tyme alone wit you
But i was too shy to ask...
When you laid beside me i began to mesmerise
I looked up to the moon and began to fantasize
You drowned all my sorrows when i'm wit you
And it feels like a dream come true
It feels so soothing,
And i'm hoping that one day i could hold u close to me and u would be my boo
And if u would to be mine,i promise with all my heart
That i'll love u wit all my affection and try my best not to break us apart
And the words i mean it and i'll keep inside
Now and till the whole life through and it ain't a lie

I can't keep the secrets for long, no more... I'm so into you...

---wrecked @ 12/28/2003 08:19:00 PM---

I'm back from Haikel's bbq pit.. Stayed overnight. Great i should say. Felt that my sorrows flew away when i'm with *sweet lady* especially at the pit. Anyways,going to the movies with Nadia, Aidil and Farz. What movie to watch i don't know but anything will do.

Now i'm listening to Will Smith's 1000 Kisses while updating my blog. It's nice... So touching. Getting over the heartbreak my ex caused my a few days ago. Anyways..back to the overnight... It was great. Riuh... Especially Samad and Haikel with their "ombak" or whatsoever thingy. Can't stop laughing my head off. And before i headed home,there was an argument going on and we hafta break it down. Serious to say its nonsensical. Anyways... my grandpop gave me 20 bucks today. Hahaha! Got nothing else to say... Gonna have fun later. Hit the road now.

---wrecked @ 12/28/2003 11:45:00 AM---

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